Day 1

Friday September 24, 2010

Weight: 265
BMI: 40.3
Waist: 49in

Hello

I'm fat. I'm obese. I'm overweight. I'm a lard ass. It doesn't matter how you word it to me. Its just true. I've been this way since high school. Do I care? Well, of course I do. I mean who really likes to be fat? I don't think anyone wakes up one morning and decides today is the day I'm going to start to be fat. On the flip side so many of us wake up every morning saying today is going to be the day I begin my weight loss. As the day goes on it ends up becoming tomorrow I will start. Or this is going to be my last cheeseburger. Its not like fat people don't own mirrors and we don't know what we look like. Many of us choose to not look at ourselves naked in front of them unless we have to. But, we do know what we look like. Its on our mind more than you think.

I love all the stereotypes of fat people: they're lazy, they don't care, they don't try, she must be lesbian. Maybe we should start some about skinny people: they must starve themselves, they're lacking a few taste buds, they try too hard, she must be a slut. I am not lazy. If I'm asked to do something, I'll do it. I clean my house, mow the lawn, play with my daughter, do laundry, etc. I do care very much. Like I said early its always on my mind. I do try but its a very hard process. Its much easier to gain the weight than it is to lose it. Lesbian? Really?? I love this one the most. Why is that just because men aren't interested in me, its assumed that I'm not interested in them? Trust me I want to get laid too. By a man. But lets be realistic here... I wouldn't want to sleep with me either.

So, I'm on here to rant a little about being fat and hopefully lose some weight along the way. In the last year I have lost 40lbs. Well, it was 50lbs but I have gained some back because I haven't been very motivated lately. I thought this might help. My weakness is food. I don't mind exercising but love to eat. Especially sweets. So, I'll try some new diets, new foods, and new exercises and hopefully in the end a new man. Along the way maybe a few followers will join me.